…I have nobody, to call my own. :note:
Yup, I’m singing that song by Akon. That’s how I feel now anyways. I don’t have a special man in my life, and it can get really lonely. No one to cuddle up with, no one to call, and no one to love…intimately anyways. *sigh*
So why don’t I have a man?? That’s a question I wonder myself. The only answer I can seriously come up with is that I don’t get out as much. It’s actually quite difficult. Let me explain how so.
First of all, I only have a few close friends who I consider true friends in my life. All the rest of the people in my facebook or msn list are just acquaintances I went to school with or previously worked with. It’s not like I’ll call them up and ask to hang out. Nooo way….can you say AWKWARD!!
With the few close friends I do have, it’s difficult to get together. People work at different places, have different shifts, have their own issues to deal with, etc. It’s hard to set a date and stick to the plan of hanging out.
Then there’s my family. Both my sisters have their own lives to live and have busy schedules. Ones working two jobs, getting married, and trying to get fully settled in her new house. The other is in school trying to finish her high school diploma, and has a baby boy to take care of. Having all of us available at the same day, is way too hard to do. One person works one day, the other doesn’t. One has school at night, the other during the day. Everything is complete opposites.
So why don’t I go out by myself?? Are you CRAZY!! I think not. First of all, when I do go out, I like to have some drinks. Sometimes I even get stupid drunk. How on earth am I suppose to be smart and not leave with a stranger if I’m stupid drunk and not in my right mind? Impossible unless I have someone there with me to help my drunk ass. So going out alone is definitely out of the question. Plus, it’s just weird. I’ve never seen a young girl go out to a bar or club by herself and just sit there. I mean, I understand those old pervy guys who always end up standing near the back watching everyone….but me?? No way!!
Thus, I’m living lonely single life right now.
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NOTE: This post was originally posted on my Living In Perfect Harmony blog which no longer exists.